nimgnoy let the night fall at 11:29 PM
fridaythedaybeforeyesterdayWhat do you get when you put Junhan, Victoria and me in Madam Wong's on a Friday night with a whole other bunch of NUS students?Three best friends dancing on top of a three-tiered podium for all to see.Well, the truth is, the air is easier to breathe up there, and also... now that's between the three of us.* *mondaywhichwillbetomorrowI am so getting killed for saying this but, nothing thrills me more than seeing Shirlyn on Monday. And in true Halloween spirit, Vic's wearing her mask and bringing that huge fork-like thingie that the devil carries. PARTY!* *saturdaywasyesterdayifyoucouldnotfigureLazing at the Botanic Gardens over a warm afternoon, lying on the grass till sunset.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:28 PM
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:06 PM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
I just realised that Halloween's this sunday and I have not got the slightest clue of what to wear. Just found out that UnXpected's going to be there too! Not playing though. But there's Shirlyn....................=))
nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:22 PM
Why must every happy face be underlined with experiences of pain?Why must every wonderous spring be preceded by a lifeless winter?There is this funny thing about happiness, success, beauty and all that is positive.It is intrinsically coupled with the other negative on the extreme end, and cannot be seperated. After all, they are measures of the same plane on the same scale. Both sides, if you may, of the same coin.For true happiness cannot come without pain. The worth of happiness would never be satisfied without the prior suffering. I am of course not advocating suffering. But positive emotions do not stand alone.* *On a lighter note, I am glad I am finally watching the Cincinnati Pops tonight at the Esplanade. It would almost be just a dream to watch them live when I heard of their music a few years back, but tonight I finally have the chance. I feel like a fan.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:55 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Hastily, I finished my Literature essay in a record time of under 4 hours. And I lament at the fact that I am falling ill again, which really should not be the case.And what can I attribute it to?Late nights chatting aimlessly on msnDeadlines to fightAn existence to struggleThe lack of youAh, the means we define our days by.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 2:13 PM
Just about two hours ago, I was in bed but unable to sleep. I had slept too much in the day and the night before.I looked out at the night sky from my bed. It was deviod of any stars and of any moon. A blank canvas staring back at me. I felt empty and a fraction lost. I went through the meaning of it all again, reminding myself there was still life waiting, afterall.Two hours later, here I am, sitting in the silent kitchen in this silent house. Laptop to my right, and instant noodles on my left. I was hungry. Half blogging, half trying to justify this late night affair by reading some Literature notes.You make me happy.You fill my sleepless solitude.You shine in my life.You are almost all that I need.You should not make me happy.You should not fill my sleepless solitude.You should not shine in my life.You should not be all that I need.People change, but what is often more disturbing to us is other people changing, especially when they do so at a rate or in a way at variance with our own change. If all personal changes are, in fact, informed by general social ones, and these larger changes assume a course that necessarily leaves some behind, are we then to accept that such persons are the inevitable cost of social development? What if this cost is precisely central to that in the name of which it has been claimed? Are humanity and society really compatible at heart?
nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:53 AM
nimgnoy let the night fall at 11:46 AM
Saturday, October 22, 2005
It worries me when I think more of what to wear to Halloween parties than what to write in my essays. I cannot wait till the essay deadline ends, and the parties begin. Mdm Wong's, Coccolatte, and what else, Chinablack? Oh and Phuture too.I wake up with a hangover.It was not the sweetest hangover.Long Island Tea, 120 bucks worth.I would not leave before you.I wanted you to leave before me.I am sorry.I sat, after I saw you board the cab.Ate a lone breakfast till 4:30am.I hate to see you cry.I am sorry. It all started with my stupidity.I wake up with a hangover.It was not the sweetest hangover.Long Island Tea.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:48 PM
I stink of cigarette smoke and smell of alcohol. Ears muffed from loud music.That's Wala Wala for you. But I had a good time, a great time, a fabulicious time.And man, I finally hear Shirlyn again after 2 months!!Oh forgive me. nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:21 AM
Thursday, October 20, 2005
ora e rifinito, signoreI put what is the memory of you aside now, holding no validityno worthno contextIt has moved on, I believe. To greater heights,I believe.il est fini maintenant, monsieurWe fold these clothes because we do not fit into them anymoreWe fold these clothes because they do not fit onto us anymoreWe fold, we keep them awaye terminado agora, senhorNo less of beauty, no less of love!Even as the sun sets, I see the geeseSkim narrowly above a shimmering wateres wird jetzt, Sir beendetora e rifinito, signore!It is done now, sir!* *Wild geeseflying across the blue sky aboveTheir imagereflected on the water belowThe geesedo not mean to cast their image on the waterNor the watermirror the image of the geese
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:40 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
A very Happy 21st to my buddy Junhan.
Now, as part of celebrations of his official legality to watch R(21) films, I am, for the very 1st time, putting up some of our Aussie pictures up for viewing ,with Junhan having the starring role of course.
I could not have imagined the trip without this fella.
And you might just notice some of his traits that was exemplified through the trip - being plain stupid that is.
Stupid pose..
And yet another..
Poser as well..
Taken as our boat was ascending for the plunge down at Seaworld
Oh Junhan just can't the opportunity with a cute girl slide..
At seaworld's cable car
Our balls hung loose here, this was us at the Viking Ship in motion (okay I look stupid too)
Our home cooked dinner in Gold Coast
Stupidity again, on our 2 hour way to Sunshine Coast
The day we decided to take public buses and do what the locals do
Sheesh he looks like a hamster, Sunshine Coast's public bus
Sunshine Mall, stupidity again
Joseph joining in the stupidity
Final dinner at Hog's Breath Cafe, freezin.
Waiting for our flight at Brisbane International
Well, life would be pretty much different without this dude around. Enjoy your 21st Junhan.Your friendship is cherished.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:15 AM
I cannot believe they are selling cars at NUS.6 new FIATs line up glossed and waxed at the Forum, going for S$32,000ish each.Now that's an expensive bazaar.* *A look at the scoreboard...Political Science - -1 days to deadline, 100% doneSouth Asian Studies - 6 days to deadline, 2% doneLit - 8days to deadline, 0% donePhilisophy - 10 days to deadline, 85% done
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:58 AM
It has been terribly cold these days. Torrential rains over the weekend and the drizzle this morning made the sun go cold as well. My feet feel cold now, even though I switched the a/c off.I had my last Political Science tutorial today, which is scary of course, 'cause it only means the term is coming to a close and everything is starting to wind down for the examinations. And I just received the email notifying the 24 hour operation of the YIH study room from Wednesday onwards.And extremely elated that I managed a A- for my Pol Science mid term test which, if you remember, I gave up studying for the season premiere of The Amazing Race 3 or 4 weeks back.* *In other news, it is too cumbersome letting my friends know individually, too many of you, so I am blasting it here. I'll be away after my paper ends on Dec 1.Dec 1 - 3: Camping at UbinDec 5 - 12: Vacationing TasmaniaAnd considering that this would be my third trip to Australia in a year, I seriously need to break out of this Kangaroo route and find my way to Europe or the Americas.
Catch me after the 12th yah.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 2:26 PM
Ok I am lame. But hey, it kept me awake while I slogged through this paper.
1:45pm
3:27pm
5:13pmFinally done with my Political Science paper! 4 hours in the Central Library surely helped.A look at the scoreboard...Political Science - 3 days to deadline, 100% done (Oh allow me the satisfaction of having it bold)South Asian Studies - 10 days to deadline, 2% doneLit - 12 days to deadline, 0% donePhilisophy - 14 days to deadline, 0% done1 down, now 3 to go.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 5:15 PM
While the stress of completing 4 essays by end October is gradually mounting, I only have myself to blame for not prior sacrificing my social life to constructing these essays.The week however, has been one of the best. Academically, I had a fulfilling and very insightful nourishment of the mind, while meeting up with good friends weaved amongst this journey of knowledge aquisition.Once again, I left Dr Roy's Literature lecture on Hiroshima Mon Amour with a great sense of indequacy, as she had once did the same for her lecture on Lolita. Her lectures are so dense and jammed packed with astuteness, it marvels me at how much I still have to learn in the reading of literature. She demands all of me.The week passed by with a good momentum, the evenings cool and calm. Each day I spend time recollecting and absorbing the new knowledge instilled within. Then I go out and play.I did pretty well for my Philosophy paper, which I am rather proud of. 23/25! That should be an A+? Ooh, I'm philosophical.The week has been rigorous and demanding of my concentration and focus, but that is why I love what I am doing. The rate at which I am learning is a pace acclerated and unprecedented, and I am plunged and exposed to a new depth of perspective. And I cannot believe the semester is coming to an end in 4 weeks.Not forgetting the great moments with Timmy, Angela, Jon, Macy, Jiada this week.* *As for my essays?Political Science - 3 days to deadline, 5% doneSouth Asian Studies - 10 days to deadline, 2% doneLit - 12 days to deadline, 0% donePhilisophy - 14 days to deadline, 0% done
nimgnoy let the night fall at 9:52 AM
Google Earth is so cool.See, this is where I spend most of my days absorbing new knowledge and making a fool out of myself. This satellite photo above, if you did not know, is NUS' Arts faculty.Feeling confident, I set out to find where Jackie and Yvonne's location is.
There, Univeristy of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. And zooming into the stadiums on the right..
..we see Avery Dorm! And now I can visualise both of them slacking and lazing their time away, breathing in the All-American air, and watching baseball matches from their room.Emboldened, I set out to search for Jess' place, where I visited last year.
Now, they do not call me a human-GPS for nothing. I successfully navigated my way round Melbourne and found myself at St Kilda. Well, I shall not reveal Jess' exact apartments (for security reasons, considering it is a permanent residence), but it is clearly visible in this photo. Just note the location! Overlooking the sea and less than 5 minutes to the beach? I am envious. Oh, did I also mention the 3 minute walk to a performing theatre (bottom right corner of the picture), and 7 minute walk to cafes, and 5 minutes walk to an amusement park too? nimgnoy let the night fall at 1:33 PM
Someone called Vic an Ah Lian.Head to the nearest bomb shelter y'all. Run for cover!
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:10 PM
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Take a good look at the world around you. We live in an absurd world today, an absurdist universe all along. Too many things in life we do not comprehend or even want to try understanding, of things big and small, detatched and close to our hearts.Why, as a human race progressed this far, still face a substantial percentage of the world population living in poverty. Why people in power, assumed to know what's best, choose to protect detrimental industries rather than sticking by the Kyoto Protoccol. Why, understanding what is just, know that good guys often inevitably lose. Why, no matter how hard we try, can never have a say in how love intends to lead.Such is life.Even our existence, for the atheists amongst us. Seems almost like we were thoughtlessly thrown into a vacuous life without transcendence, a godforsaken station where all actions are meaningless and useless. How then is one to live, or go on living?Such is life.I arrived at this after talking to Hani two nights ago. Discussing the anguishes and angst we experience in existence as a being in what we view as a cruel world. The almost constant lack of contentment in life.But life, should never be in a state of contentment. A contented life, to me, is no different from one that is dead. We struggle, but through struggles we find meaning, and a life worth living. Yes, the world may be absurd. We cannot control the absurdities, but even more so, should never let the absurdities control us. Have faith.Such is life, live it!
nimgnoy let the night fall at 6:29 PM
So Vic and I went downtown,
Bumped into Angela,
And had a fleeting moment with Jon, simultaneously.It was all a very good day. nimgnoy let the night fall at 8:06 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
My search for you.Your search for me.They still resound in my head.It is a search for something that cannot be found.Perhaps it is forbidden. Perhaps it is not willed.Perhaps it may not exist at all.And only the impossible is worth the effort, they say.Bullshit.I prove myself wrong all the time.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 5:44 PM
Mixing business and pleasure? I have one final text left to devour, which is Hiroshima Mon Amour. Weaving some dvds in between, I should comfortably finish that in no time. Quite weirdly, I love and am quite confident of the text most deem hardest, Kafka's The Trial, yet struggles and squirms like a worm for the popularly loved text, Nabokov's Lolita. My kampf. Mein kampf. 
Notes from my current text, Ionesco's Rhinoceros. This text has exemplified all that this module has to offer, which mercilessly teared down all that I had known literature to be. And reconstructs steadily. Now I approach literary works with a whole new approach. Reading is never the same again. nimgnoy let the night fall at 4:01 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
I love attending lectures because..South Asian Studies - My presentation group simple rocks. The lecture is extremely boring and barely audible, but it is dotted with video clips that keep me up. And the rest of my group pals never fail to bring some sort of finger food to share. I would have simply caught the webcast if not for them.E Lit - I love Dr Gwee's chim-ness of all things. I love listening to his insights. I love reading Lit in a radically bold light. I love knowing that I know about topics like existentialism and the absurdist theatre. I love being humbled as I leave the LT.Philo - Asides from having Hani there, Philo is as interesting as trying to know life. And seeing how Prof Holbo new specs look like. And finding out if there really is a frog under his lecture desk. And having speed-breakfast during the 10 min break. And all the new ideas and thinking I leave with is astounding.Political Science - PS is horribly dry as a subject, pretty much content based. Dr Kripa is weird, but in a good way. She is capable of coming up with the funniest jokes that, on face value seems stale, but on second thought is really funny. Which is why the lecture theatre only laughs 5 seconds after she finishes a joke. I go to lecture just to see how she does that every single week.General Bio - I only go if Hani, Peewee or Jiaxia goes. If not, I feel better off staying in my room. Dr Seow is nice, but nothing else compels me to know more. I've S/U-ed it anyway.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 6:07 PM
Bread from Pan Pacific. Brings a new meaning to "So good you can even eat it on its own". Though the abundance of nuts and oats make me feel mildly like a bird, I do not deny good food that works my palate. Check out the nut density!
nimgnoy let the night fall at 4:21 PM
Meme.I am that baby who was delivered leg out first, while still in the waterbag.I am that boy who would shout "paper, pencil, rubber!" and had grandma bring them to me without delay. I am that toddler who would cry in bed in the morning and expected my grandma to know that it was milk I wanted, of all things. I am that boy who threw a tantrum and made a din in CK Tang when my grandparents refused to buy me a He-Man sword, and they did finally, to much embarrassment. I am that boy who picked up the phone at age 7 and called my grandma, telling her sorry for all that I have done wrong, then hung up calmly. I am that sinner who found conscience through grandma.I am that boy who was too naive. I am that scrawny boy who was too afraid to visit the toilet in Primary 1 because there were eerie noises from closed cubicles, which I later found to the the doings of EM3 students. I am that brother who gave up the bathtub to my sister because I believed when she told me there were snakes beneath.I am the son who wonder when he can ever repay all the love his mom has unconditionally provided, and how. I am that son who silenced his father when asked why I scolded the profanity "fuck you" in my sister's face; "You say that too," was my reply. I am the son who loves his dad but finds it too hard to reach out.
I am that boy who found his first love in Yifang, then got so excited when she revealed that she liked someone whose surname started with "H", only to realise she meant "Huang". I am that guy who was her best friend since, till today.I am that friend who was always apprehensive about his closest friends, because they mean the most to him. I am that fella who is blessed with friends a plenty, and makes no apologies for it.I am that grandson who cried in front of his grandma the night before the single most important operation of her life, having been the one telling everyone else not to let her see us cry. I am that guy who was the only one allowed to stay overnight in Mouth Elizabeth Hospital so that grandma can hold his hand whenever. I am the guy she last spoke to before she was wheeled into the operating theatre suite. I am the grateful who loved her for loving him.I am the vainpot who showered every morning because it was the only way to tame the hair ready for styling. I am the experimental who just discovered this morning that the way he blew his hair dry was as important as the styling process.I am the blogger because my mind and heart seek outward manifestation. I am the writer because my heart sings and bleeds, and yearns for closure. I am the poet because I see life in words, and realise how elusive language deceives.
I am the young adult who has chosen the life of Arts and never regretted it since.I am the boy who loves you, still.* *This blog has officially been established for a year. Commemoration.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 3:00 PM
I cannot believe that it is past midnight and I just got off the phone with Jon, a welcomed break between the political science paper I am rushing to finish.From time to time, my view of life changes by bits or miles. And largely affected by the circumstances that surround me at that moment.Right now? I need sleep actually.I have noted that my posts of late have been descriptive, exactly the style I hate and almost detest. But I am doing this for a few reasons, and for a few people. Jac n Yvonne being 2 of them.* *In case you were wondering, the squirrel died soon after. It defied nature. Which is why you would never see a squirrel ever doing that, some things are made to function in certain ways that we cannot explain. It is beyond us.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 12:50 AM
The squirrel woke up one summer's morning.Yawning, and with arms outstretched, it said, "Man, I'm tired of collecting nuts."And it went back up the branches.
nimgnoy let the night fall at 2:11 PM
