where thoughts materialise.

So we're into the sixth version of my blog after the last version hung around for a year or so.

Now, a bit of info on this image. This photo was taken one lovely spring afternoon, featuring the iconic Old Well from the UNC Chapel Hill campus. I would like to think of this image as a tribute to my time in UNC Chapel Hill, the awesome friends I made and the memories I now hold dear.

A milestone in my life indeed.

I've dropped the tagboard cos its useless and taking eons to load. But thanks to Angela who helped me set it up, I still do like and will miss the pink interface.

So yeah, it's the sixth one you fellas!

Yours.

27 April 2008

you know you miss my older entries

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Monday, May 29, 2006

I made another collage to keep me happy. Yet another random selection from Brisbane 05 that focuses mainly on us. In our apartments, in the public buses, on fields of green, in elevators. Just photos that exude nothing but the simple life. Because, it is often the simple plain living where you understand life the most, and the best.

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I would have just embarked on my SEA journey today, to discover the cultures and history I had never known.

By choosing to stay, I find myself constantly having to remind myself that I live in the 'today' and not the past. I get overly sentimental with the past because it is nothing like the situation I have to face today - the impending death of someone so close. Which has kept me from living my 'today's to the fullest - very dangerous and time wasting.

I have learnt to take my foot out from the past, and to firmly place it in the present, and to understand the importance of it all. I live in 'today'.

By choosing to live in 'today', I can fully be in acceptance of the reason I chose to stay, that is to give my grandma the best quality of life left for her. In that sense, I appreciate how useless it is to complain that I could have been overseas or how life would have been less burdenful.

I had to come to terms with death as the inevitable. People think very little about death. They spend their lives worried about really absurd things, putting things off and leaving important moments aside. They risk nothing because they believe that is dangerous. They grumble a lot, but act like cowards when it is time to take certain steps. If they thought a little more about death, they would never fail to make that telephone call that they have been putting off. They would be a little more crazy. They would not be afraid of the end of this incarnation - because you cannot be afraid of something that is going to happen anyway.

I learnt to look at death in its face and realise that it is part of life, and see life as a transitory and impermanent journey to another.

By accepting death, I am more prepared for life. And I feel that this is the greatest lesson of all. This is perhaps what all the events have been planted to lead me towards. The magnitude of it all placed my little rantings and complaints into perspective, to realise the bigger meaning of living a life.

To be at peace with the world, I have learnt to be at peace with my inner self.

Today I realize, as I look back at how events unfolded, that I had a greater calling to be back home and very unknowingly, I had launched myself on a journey, a very different journey to appreciate life and to cherish the ones I love.

nimgnoy let the night fall at 11:50 AM

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